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I went and picked up my guitar

The new one

The red one

I don’t get along with the old one anymore

The black one

At least not today

I wonder why that is

Suddenly it doesn’t sound half bad

The magic power of change

Last week I started reading a couple of books

Been sitting on the shelf for a while

French author

I think I get along with him

And his sequence of events

Old and new

These stories have waited for me

On a whim I picked them up

I feel honest when I read them

But tonight I’m not reading

Just sitting around

Worrying about

Time

And thinking about

Lunar eclipses

And trying to play that damned guitar

The new one

Now it’s starting to work against me

They do that

Every so often

The light in this room

Strangles your eyes

I wonder

Has it always been this way?

I should get a new lamp

But then again

It would just shine

Intense

For a while

Before it too would work against me

I look across the room

Illuminated by bad light

Is the black guitar

The old one

I put the red one down

The new one

Back in black

Suddenly the light

Doesn’t seem that bad

Suddenly the notes I play

Sound like music to my ears

I feel rejuvenated

Change can do that

From time to time

Awaiting the coming silence

And the emptiness

Trying to settle down

And think of something else

Attempting to clear the mind

Appreciate the solitude

It should be welcome

But now it feels like abuse

Anytime but at this instant

The silence would be cherished

Now it appears like a storm

A storm where sailors perish

In order to keep alive

The earthbound escape

The seclusion of the mind

The attempt to stay awake

Where do I go when my heart lies here

Where do I go when the future is over there

Where do I stand at the end of the day

Where do I live without running away

How does it feel to roam the unknown

How does it feel to live a life that’s your own

How does it make me into my ideal

How does it make me able to feel

When will I know where my future lies

When will the dreams I have actualize

When will the clouds in the sky disappear

When will everything seem crystal clear

If there is strength let it be shown

If there is doubt may it turn to stone

If there are dreams that do come true

If there is just a chance we can still be two

Finally getting some rest

The day has flown by

Another test

Another sigh

Staring into the light

Weakening my eyes

Can’t write

Can’t revise

Want to get some sleep

Also to pull an all-nighter

Too many thoughts

Too much of a fighter

Need to stop right now

Before I go completely insane

Now I take my bow

Now I rest my brain

I see a road ahead
That’s the dream in my head
Images of white lines
Floating by in the night

I feel a chilly breeze
Weakening my knees
Overcome by fear
Just counting the tears

These tears that I can not control
Are testing the base of my soul

I want to be set free
And face this harsh reality
I want to find that road
That can lead me home
The alchemists recipe
My path of destiny

The doubt and despair
Fills up the air
I wish for something better
For now and forever

I open my heart up
With a surgical cut
Grasping for a promise
Of a path made for me

A path that maneuvers me
To the place that I want to be

Everybody wants to be free
I’m just like everyone you see
I want to find that road
That can lead me home
The alchemists recipe
My path of destiny

The curtains are blue

In this dusty old room

That echoes of pain and joy

The walls are so white

They keep me warm at night

Carefully decorated with art

I stare at the stormy waves circled with gold

There is no escape when you’re caught in that void

Thoughts linger for a while and then get replaced

A perfect way to put your short time to waste

Staring into nothing

A one way discussion

A neural combustion

Staring into nothing

The memories from here

I despise and hold dear

But solitude soothes the soul

The laughter in these walls

Is the reason to dance the waltz

Of life and death and dreams

I analyze the people on the narrow rocky street

Think about just how they make their ends meet

Thoughts linger for a while and then get replaced

A perfect way to put your short time to waste

Staring into nothing

A one way discussion

A neural combustion

Staring into nothing

Time moves on

Even when you’re still

Time moves on

No judgement or ill will

Time moves on

Perhaps it needs to be killed

Staring into nothing

A one way discussion

A neural combustion

Staring into nothing

I woke up one morning
As a new day was forming
And I thought of the past yet again

I thought of those times
When we balanced on that line
That was so very easy to bend

Back then it was so easy
Though it always felt so hard
What I’d give to make a treaty
That would let me play my cards
One more time
So I can find some
Peace of mind

And where did everyone go
The people I used to know
Who were once so close to my heart

We swore we’d never stray
From each other in such a way
That our bonds just couldn’t fall apart

But people just move away
And travel to foreign lands
Everyone seems to have strayed
Far from their plans
And I’ve strayed from mine
And I can’t find no
Peace of mind

And so I thought about her
And that smile she used to wear
Every time I’d stand by her door

We weren’t of the same kind
But true love is always blind
Even so we got stranded on that shore

And I still wonder how she is
And if she ever thinks about me
I’ll never forget her tender kiss
And I still miss her you see
From time to time
So I can’t find no
Peace of mind

Well I’m just an old idealist
That still seems to persist
Through the blaze that have clouded my eyes

Though I’m not going strong
I’m still hanging on
Just trying to touch the sky

Even if I don’t pull through
I’ll know that I’ve tried
’til then you’ll find me on the move
Because the road is what’s worth while
Not the finish line
I travel searching for
Peace of mind

Whatever happened to Sal
He was once my best pal
And we always lived too fast

That was way back when
The rules would always bend
But such a life could never last

He comes back to my mind
As I fall back into that hole
Again I’m walking the same line
And it’s beginning to take it’s toll
One more time
That’s why I find no
Peace of mind

The memories I hold dear
Are of the ones who have been near
And I often think about them all

Some of them are thieves
Some are begging on their knees
For the judgement of God to fall

And I keep a-searching for the route
That makes this life worth living
I’m putting on a brand new suit
And I’m gonna’ keep a-singing
These words of mine
Until I find
My peace of mind

A life lived
The end of raising hell
I think we always knew
It could never end well

Separated by an ocean
Though closer than ever
When it all evaporates
We shall once again be together

At least this life
Brings on a new one
A new road to follow
A new era has begun

So let’s not dwell
On quarrels and trouble
We shall be newborn
And rise from the rubble

So I raise my glass to you
Even though you can not
I honour our past with no regrets
And I hope for the future for which we fought