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Thoughts in the shape of words.

I’m Stuck

I’m sad and blue

Just because of you

I’m stuck with a feeling

That won’t let go

 

I’m torn between worlds

As one who always yearns

I’m stuck with reality

That’s not good enough

 

Is it right if it’s real?

Is it wrong to feel?

I’m stuck with this hole

I hoped would be full

 

Is it true what they say?

True love finds a way

I’m stuck with doubt

Tearing me apart

 

I’ve been hoping for so long

To right my wrongs

I’m stuck with failure

I never seem to learn

 

And if this is how it must be

In order to be somewhat free

I’m stuck with a tragedy

Two different paths of doubt

 

Alas I sail again towards the horizon

Seeking again to be enlightened

I’m stuck a with pain so severe

Hoping to choose the right path

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The spell

A long shower

A breath of fresh air

Some smiling faces

To get me there

 

The shining sun

The smell of grass

A bright tomorrow

Forget ’bout the past

 

A time of wonder

Some new ideas

The books on the shelf

I set them free

 

And I believe again

In the small wonders

In the change inevitable

And the spell we’re under

Vibration

A vibration in the air

As the sun beats down

On the leafless tree

In the yard

 

A sound from the tracks

Running through the forest

Train cars speeding

Away from the city

 

My mind starts to shake

At that same frequency

Picking up the signals

Airbound notes

 

My body starts to move

Vibrations in the bones

Turning me on

To dreaming

 

Pictures of fallen heroes

Returning one last time

Vibrations of hope

Through the air

 

 

 

Chained to a Memory

I used to be so happy

That I found my destiny

But every day that lingers on

I feel more empty

 

There’s a lot of doubt inside me

That never used to be

Could it be my restless soul?

Or am I chained to a memory

 

Chained to

Chained to

Chained to a memory

Chained to

Chained to

The fate which would never be

I hear a wretched melody

Chained to a memory

Chained to a memory

 

Tomorrow don’t seem so bright

Yesterday’s out of sight

The only thing that seems real

Are the dreams of past twilight

 

I miss the past sensuality

Of the nights when we were free

And I just can’t let go of those

I’m chained to a memory

 

Chained to

Chained to

Chained to a memory

Chained to

Chained to

The fate which would never be

I hear a wretched melody

Chained to a memory

Chained to a memory

Again and again

The realization of disaster

Coming at you so fast

Emotions running hot

Lying wide awake at night

Just trying to make some sense

Out of the conflicts

And the extraordinary words

Where the path strayed

If the path ever was true

If the past becomes the present

In an never ending loop

Just when it felt like progress

Time reaches ’round to strangle you

To make every last bit of air

Evaporate from your lungs

And you’re back in that moment

When the world falls apart

Not even a tear mustered

Just emptiness

Over and over

Again and again

Space

This place was cluttered

Now the mess is gone

It made me feel downhearted

But I’ve come back strong

I didn’t fix it for me

Just preparing for company

Amazing, the light it brings

Making space for friends, clearing out things

I Could Never Forget

So, here’s one for you. This was written on January 25, 2011. That makes it 6 years old. I’ve finally found the missing piece of the original document so, here it is. I did some slight editing from the original text, but this is a treasure for sure. Well, for me anyways.

 

Wait for me I’m coming down

Down To the river

I’ve just gotta’ get my coat

You know the rain it makes me shiver

And I think about that time

The time that we first met

You know I could never forget

 

I see the boats sailing by

And I’m wondering where they’re going

Maybe to some foreign land

Perhaps going out for some meeting

And I remember the first time I kissed you

The only kiss I’ll never regret

You know I could never forget

 

And then we walk up on that path

That leads to my old house

You say you gotta’ go home

Those words they feel like ice

One look in your blue eyes

Gives me shivers down my neck

Your love I could never forget

Pulling Through

When your hopes are down

And you can’t get up

Your mind’s just stuck

And you’re all out of luck

And suddenly you find

Someone to share your time

Turn your feelings around

 

Those rare moments

Are what I live for

Without those moments

I’d never get out the door

I’d be stuck with myself again

With my mental hurricane

 

So when your hopes are down

And you’re not pulling through

You’ve smoked a pack

To avoid a panic attack

That’s when you cling

To whatever life will bring

For you to make it through

 

When those moments

Come around again

I make the most of them

Dealing with the insane

Revival through conversation

Punching through the isolation

On Nights Like These

I was walking down main street

Where the people move

Where the light falls free

 

There was a rhythm coming at me

From inside the old bar

From the stage of dreams

 

On nights like these

When the moon is high

Where strangers meet

Please let life exist

On nights like these

 

I’m still in love with the idea

Of the living night

Of getting what’s needed

 

If I could own that feeling

Come to me please

Come night, come healing

 

On nights like these

When the moon is high

Where strangers meet

Please let life exist

On nights like these

 

One of these days

And it won’t be long

I’ll hear that rhythm

I’ll hear that song

All of the time

And I pray it’s soon

So I wish upon the moon

 

On nights like these

When the moon is high

Where strangers meet

Please let life exist

On nights like these

Faces

Faces

In the crowd

They look at me

I try to figure out why

I move up a flight of stairs

And look down at the faces

They look so strange to me

I have to get out

Get some air

Get away from the faces

Find some peace

And quiet

 

I open the balcony door

And move out

The air chills my bones

No faces here

Only this vessel

And the stars

So far away

But closer than any face

More vivid than anyone

I take a deep breath

Wish upon the stars

Get back inside

 

I move

So swiftly

Down the hallway

Avoiding the faces

I open the last door on the left

A small room with only a bed

And not a single face in sight

I sit down on the bed

Suddenly the door opens

And there is a face

Just like mine

“Please, sit down”