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Heavy eyes

Long way home

A cold evening

Staring out the dirty window

On the tracks

Passing by

This train

Full of strange souls

Common people

Mothers and fathers

Losers and lovers

All wanting just one thing

To get home

To have a meal

To free the mind

To sleep together

To live forever

I love meeting a pair

Of heavy eyes

On the train

They all have

A story to tell

The story of

Keeping it going

Staying alive

With or without

Hope and fear

Laughter and tears

Thats all I’m looking for tonight

To look into your heavy eyes

Let them tell me a story

Keep me up until sunrise

I’ll tell you the truth in order to stay alive

I’ll fight you in order to be free

I’ll lie to you because of what I want

And I’ll make you a deal in order to feel calm for a while

I look at you because I want you with me

I am your friend but worry you’re not mine

I hate that I find it hard to truly hate

And I enjoy the way we make each other better

This is my body and soul today

A collection of thoughts

That may be defined differently tomorrow

Honesty, conflict, dishonesty, peace

Attraction, friendship, disgust, antagonism

All join together in the mind

Travel through space and time

And when they feel outdated

I stop and think of them all again

Some roses

In the window

Behind the curtain

I stare at them

Try to feel alive

Wishing for energy

Outside the trees sway

Tenderly in the wind

The wind I need to sail

To finish what I started

This room is my chain

Which is unbroken

Not a crack to be seen

Thoughts of betrayal

Or perhaps love

They coexist

In my mind

Over time

I fix my eyes

Again at the trees

So near

But these chains

I stare at the roses

The stalks

The flowers

And

The thorns

So sharp

And strong

More powerful than

The autumn wind

These awful chains

The roses do give

Life and energy

Strength and power

They crack the chains

A hole to escape through

Through the window

By the roses

A lazy day

Dreaming away

Gonna borrow a book

And waste time

Tired legs

Pain in my head

But it’s all right

Taking care of myself

Overheard the news

A situation to diffuse

But not today

Recovery of the mind

Same old coat

A bit of a sore throat

Gonna walk the streets

Gaze at some buildings

Then turn back home

Get to be alone

Enjoy my own company

Disregard most of the world

And I will feel satisfied

With all that I’ve set aside

There will come time for that

This one’s for me

A long shower

A breath of fresh air

Some smiling faces

To get me there

The shining sun

The smell of grass

A bright tomorrow

Forget ’bout the past

A time of wonder

Some new ideas

The books on the shelf

I set them free

And I believe again

In the small wonders

In the change inevitable

And the spell we’re under

A vibration in the air

As the sun beats down

On the leafless tree

In the yard

A sound from the tracks

Running through the forest

Train cars speeding

Away from the city

My mind starts to shake

At that same frequency

Picking up the signals

Airbound notes

My body starts to move

Vibrations in the bones

Turning me on

To dreaming

Pictures of fallen heroes

Returning one last time

Vibrations of hope

Through the air

I used to be so happy

That I found my destiny

But every day that lingers on

I feel more empty

There’s a lot of doubt inside me

That never used to be

Could it be my restless soul?

Or am I chained to a memory

Chained to

Chained to

Chained to a memory

Chained to

Chained to

The fate which would never be

I hear a wretched melody

Chained to a memory

Chained to a memory

Tomorrow don’t seem so bright

Yesterday’s out of sight

The only thing that seems real

Are the dreams of past twilight

I miss the past sensuality

Of the nights when we were free

And I just can’t let go of those

I’m chained to a memory

Chained to

Chained to

Chained to a memory

Chained to

Chained to

The fate which would never be

I hear a wretched melody

Chained to a memory

Chained to a memory

The realization of disaster

Coming at you so fast

Emotions running hot

Lying wide awake at night

Just trying to make some sense

Out of the conflicts

And the extraordinary words

Where the path strayed

If the path ever was true

If the past becomes the present

In an never ending loop

Just when it felt like progress

Time reaches ’round to strangle you

To make every last bit of air

Evaporate from your lungs

And you’re back in that moment

When the world falls apart

Not even a tear mustered

Just emptiness

Over and over

Again and again

This place was cluttered

Now the mess is gone

It made me feel downhearted

But I’ve come back strong

I didn’t fix it for me

Just preparing for company

Amazing, the light it brings

Making space for friends, clearing out things

So, here’s one for you. This was written on January 25, 2011. That makes it 6 years old. I’ve finally found the missing piece of the original document so, here it is. I did some slight editing from the original text, but this is a treasure for sure. Well, for me anyways.

Wait for me I’m coming down

Down To the river

I’ve just gotta’ get my coat

You know the rain it makes me shiver

And I think about that time

The time that we first met

You know I could never forget

I see the boats sailing by

And I’m wondering where they’re going

Maybe to some foreign land

Perhaps going out for some meeting

And I remember the first time I kissed you

The only kiss I’ll never regret

You know I could never forget

And then we walk up on that path

That leads to my old house

You say you gotta’ go home

Those words they feel like ice

One look in your blue eyes

Gives me shivers down my neck

Your love I could never forget